Writing my previous blog post ended up being a much more eye opening experience than I could have ever imagined. Even though writing it was such a tedious and boring task to do, it still managed to make me see how stupid I have been. In my previous posts, I have written about the mistakes I made earlier in my life by wasting years on a thing I didn’t feel passionate about, and how everyone should be brave enough to strive for the things that they truly want. For some reason, I was on the edge of repeating my mistakes, while attempting to create excuses for myself not to pursue my true dream of becoming a writer.
I have always wanted to be a writer. While planning to become a lawyer, firefighter or whatever else I might have planned on, I have always had the thought at the back of my mind, that I will become a writer, once I’m done with all the other things. Why have I postponed this for so long? Because I didn’t believe it would be a realistic option for me.
It is possible, that I might never be able to write anything worth publishing. And even if I do, It’s still quite possible I won’t be able to make a living out of it. It is also possible, that I will make a fool out of myself while attempting all this.
But why would any of that matter? I can make a living with my current job, and I will still be able to have plenty of time to write, without sacrificing my freedom of doing the other things I love to do. Even if I never manage to write anything worth publishing, I will still be doing the thing I feel passionate about, while not committing myself to work for a goal that I don’t even want to achieve. It shouldn’t matter if I make a fool out of myself while striving for the things I hold valuable since there is already a million ways for people to make fun of me if they wanted to. Adding one more thing to that list is not such a big of a deal.
But how will I continue, now that I finally managed to take the first steps to becoming a writer by accepting my desire for it and telling the world about it?
By committing myself to work towards the goal of becoming a better writer. I might end up taking writing courses, studying grammar, reading about the subject and reading a lot more overall, but most importantly, I will write a lot.
It doesn’t matter what I write about since the most important thing is to start practicing this skill, so I will be able to write about anything I want to write about in the future. I will write blog posts, articles, reviews, short stories, long stories or even start working on a book project. Practicing. That’s how you become good at something. Having a natural talent for something is useful, even if I might not have it, but it can never be as useful as using all your capabilities to hone your skills, by practicing.
It will probably be more beneficial for me to focus on writing in my native language, instead of English, but I will continue writing this blog also. Even though my ability to express myself is far better in Finnish than in English, the ability to be more open and to come forth with my thoughts while writing in this foreign language is something that makes me want to keep doing it. I would have never been able to write “Doubts.” in Finnish for instance. I would also love to be able to write well enough in English someday to be able to write articles or blogs for a wider audience. But after reading a lot of blogs and articles written by native English speakers, I have realized how much work I still have ahead of me to be able to do it. But I will be able to do it, no matter how long it might take.
I will become a writer.